night shift 3 am, i was very surprised to received ur call. u claimed that u could not sleep ( so called the main reason u dialled my number).ur speaking tone was extraordinary abnormal, very gentle. u were on mc after a laproscopic appendicectomy. u updated me everything from A-Z about u, i turned out to be a patient listener despite my confused patient was shouting and yelling to walk on her own to toilet after her hip fractured.. i went into the utility room, silently listen to u. u told me u were freaked out to undergo a general aneasthesia, in terms of waking up during the surgery whereby the surgeon is doing the operation and u could suddenly awake and feel the damm'it pain, like the scene in the movie 'AWAKE'..u told the anesthetist to pump in more sedation so that the horror is not there.. u told me u seriously missing me. u asked me to start all over again ( us). u asked me to re-build again (us). u asked me to re-connect it back (us). u asked me if we did not end it, will it still maintain till now, i said yes, if u did not turn ur back to me on that day. u strongly persuade me to give ourselves a try, and see how it goes, i told u we can go nowhere, except for another heartbreak again?.. u pleaded and pleaded, i did not give an exact answer. u have had many wonderful planning, for me and you, to go to another place , and establish a brand new relationship or family with u, with a marvellous plan of having a baby ( conceive by an artificial way) .. a 2-hour-chat-... i thought i was dreaming in the middle of the night, but i swore i did not. u were tearing. i explained my principles to u, i clarified my feeling towards u precisely,i reinforced my level of trust towards u , again. finally u said nevermind, doesn't matter, time will prove everything.


miss J, tell me how true is it? anyway, im not eager to know.

im so blessed to have a family who is so concerned bout me, provides me with what i need , and be with me all the time . 8th may 2009 was a significant day in my life, part of my turning point . a big thank you to papa , mummy, mama, penny and meng!

当然我会留恋，毕竟你是我唯一爱得最深的人。

you will always know that the feeling of LOVE is no longer near you when you yourself can't even feel the rush of emotions or your heart beats fast easily anymore, although, the person that u think you're interested in is just standing right in front of you. you know it, you could feel the coated layer in your heart is still remain coated, and it never melts at all ~.. so, why not just close your eyes,save all the sweet memories in your heart, and surrender yourself to the future, no one knows what will happen , correct?


LifE is never reasonable and seldom does it makes any sense.

四年前，你离我而去，使我感到彷惶无助，失去了中心点。我用了两年的时间，努力地把你淡忘，萧洒自如重新地回归当初没有你的日子。然而，又有谁会晓得我们分开四年后的某一天，你来到了我的工作岗位，很突然的出现，对我说你很想念我。。我对你很冷淡，可能你的出现的确翻起我的情海波浪，但那又不至于令我产生小鹿乱撞心花怒放而耿耿于怀的感觉。。

很可惜，你再也不能让我重新信任你。

当你踏入人生的某个阶段，你就会领悟到喜不喜欢，和适不适合，

根本是两回事。

i am a dreamer but when i wake.
goodbye my lover.
you have been the one.

我们都在不断赶路，也忘记了出路，在失望中追求偶而的满足。
有谁能改变人生的长途，有谁知道永恒有多么恐怖，有谁能了解生存往往比命运还残酷。
我已经忘了身在何处，无止境的旅途看着我没停下的脚步，大家都在梦中解脱。
倾心的苦，流浪在灯火阑珊处，我们去不到终点，也回不到原点。
我想我们都不在乎。

it is special and significant. and u wouldn't know how much i am missing it.

我何时才可像你一样，静静地来，悄悄地去..

pls explain to me what is the difference between Normal and Casual...
and what if it applies into a relationship , i keen to know the answer seriously.


oh actually i know the answer partially, casual r/ship is a no string attached thingy, but shouldn't u think if u're deeply liking a person , u would prefer a normal r/ship with her/him which is 1 to 1 instead of a polygamy thing?

generally, motives for all types of relationships vary, so there is no such thing as right or wrong.

basically, i only can accept a loving normal r/ship which include mutual support and understanding , affection , enjoyment and emotional element .. so yeah.

really, really u know.. i find that ' time can heal everything ' this statement is very true . !